FINALS

I remember just a couple of weeks ago that I was really excited for this time of year. Everyone would be happy because classes are over; people would be discussing their summer plans and getting really pumped up because of the weather. Now that those couple of weeks have gone by...I really dread this week.

It makes me really upset to know that I have developed close relationships with so many people yet I will apart from them for about 4 months. I know that I will still be in touch with them whether through facebook or ichat...but, it's not the same as going to dinner with them or hanging out with them on a Friday night. It's not going to be the same when I can't go across the hall and see people that I really care about, people that have become like my family. We just said goodbye to Angela, who is leaving tomorrow. Even though I wasn't really good friends with Angela, I'm still going to miss her. I hate using the corny family reference again, but it won't be the same without everyone.

I see it this way, once one person is gone, it's the beginning of the end. Even though one person is gone, we will all never have the same experiences because one of us is gone. It will just get more depressing as time goes on. Slowly, people will file off of 17c and out of Warren for the last time. I think for me it will be the hardest just because I will be here for an extra week. Sometimes I wish that I was leaving earlier because then I would just have to leave and say goodbye to everyone at once. Instead I will be forced to watch people leave, one by one, one heartbreaking moment after another.

I think it will be hardest saying goodbye to Rachel. I've gotten to know her so well over the past couple of months that she has become one of my best friends and almost like a sister to me. I can trust her with anything and I always enjoy anything she comes to me with. I truly hope she knows how much I value her friendship.

Apart from this sad post, I'm starting to have anxiety about getting a good grade in IR. So many things to study, such little time. UGH! It's okay...I will have completed my freshman year of college by Friday and am looking forward to the next three years of fun and memories. Maybe that is how I should look at 'saying goodbye' and take it as see you soon so we can have tons of fun in a few months....just something to think about that's not International Relations aka Bane of my existence.